so i google “can you feel your depression in your head”
because there’s no other way I can express that sense of my brain
being much like a tangle of cables.
but apparently some people report feeling a something
like a pressure or a fullness there
it’s odd, really.
but it makes sense considering how
at certain times
that tangled cables feeling consumes most of the rest of my body.
a horrid kind of bondage
with rope made of brain chemistry and a yapping little voice
repeating the same damn things over and over
until you’re almost breathless with the knowledge
of how badly your mind can turn on you.